Let’s talk about those times when you’re asking and praying for God to change your circumstance, and it seems like He’s not doing it.

It seems like maybe He’s not hearing me or maybe I’m not doing something right. Maybe I’m not praying the right things or maybe I’m not being obedient in something. You may find yourself asking, “What am I missing?”

Have you ever been there?

I wanted to share this example of a moment like this with you. My youngest daughter went through a couple of years of undiagnosed issues with her stomach, and it came to the point where she was hardly eating anything and was experiencing nausea, pain, and vomiting. We went to doctor after doctor trying to figure out what was going on with our little girl.

Her symptoms started around age 2 and carried on well into her kindergarten year. As you can imagine, we were tired and frustrated. All throughout this time, we were praying, “Lord, please help us with our daughter, help us to figure out what’s going on.”

It was at this point that we finally made it to a pediatric GI doctor who is phenomenal! We are so grateful for her!

She had us begin logging everything our daughter was eating, which we had done off and on, but honestly, we had tried logging with other doctors and no one noticed any patterns. When she was tested for food allergies, the results came back that she didn’t have any allergies. I could go through the whole story, but it would take way too long…

One day recently, I came across this journal where, a few years ago, I was having to write down everything my daughter would eat so we could look for any kind of pattern of what was causing this pain.

What was causing our little girl to have so little energy that she would sit out at recess, PE, and even her music class at school? We were watching our daughter shrink before our eyes. We could see all of her bones.

It was absolutely heartbreaking.

Inside this journal, in 2021, I wrote episodes with different dates written beside what happened, the time that it lasted, how long she was lethargic, how long she would sleep, and that she had bruising that was starting to happen.

Again, all this time, we were praying,

“Lord, please, heal our daughter.”

I remember thinking, Why are You not changing my situation? God, where are You?

I also wrote down quotes from my daughter as we went through all of this. One of the questions that stuck out to me as I read back through this journal was, “Why doesn’t God heal my tummy?” And as a parent, all I could say was, “I don’t know. I know He can. I don’t know why He’s not acting right now.”

As a child, she asked the question, “Why is God not healing my tummy?” I have asked the same type of question as an adult.

Why is God not changing my circumstance?

They didn’t find a heartbeat with my baby, but He could change that if He wanted to. Why is He not doing that?!

In these moments, as a Christian, we just have to have the understanding of whether my circumstance changes or not, God does not change.

God’s goodness never changes!

I feel like that is so important to remind ourselves because eventually the tides turn. Eventually, we start to see His plan unfold, and we see His mercy, goodness, provision, and His miracles.

I feel like God has reminded me time and time again, situation after situation, “I had you the whole time.”

So, I just wanted to remind you, that if you are the one now asking the questions, “Why aren’t You doing this for me?” “Why am I still going through this?” Just know that He is still there.

I know that there are days where you may be thinking, I don’t see Him. I don’t feel Him. I can’t hear Him.

There gets to be so much going on in our heads, and the enemy will sneak in where he can. He will use whatever he can to try to create distance between you and the Lord. If he thinks that he can plant that seed of doubt that would be enough to make you walk away from your faith, you can bet he’s going to do that. The enemy is out to steal, kill, and destroy.

But remember! God is greater than that!

Don’t let the enemy win. Don’t let him conquer your thoughts. Don’t let him take over and conquer through your fear.

Do not let the enemy convince you that God is not there with you in this moment.

I promise you, that even if you don’t see it today, God is there. He is providing. He is working behind the scenes whether you see it… or whether you don’t.

Now, I have a little girl who is in 4th grade, and she is thriving! We found some medicine from the GI doctor that God led us to, that I’m telling you was only a path that God could have set, that got us to this specific doctor, to get her on this specific medicine at that time, just before she needed a tube.

We now get to see our daughter living life again with her spark and personality that we had missed so much!

I now have this Mama of More page that I started because of my experience through miscarriage.

I have seen the redemption through my rainbow baby. And no, that baby does not ever replace the baby that I lost, but I’m telling you, there is a redemptive factor there.

That is God’s goodness to me.

He will provide and show you His goodness. So, hang in there because your day is coming!

He is there with you now, and He will carry you through what you’re going through.